I watch the ripples change their size
But never leave the stream
Of warm impermanence and
So the days float through my eyes
But the days still seem the same
Next week, Babe starts kindergarten.
It’s not as though it will be her fist time away from me, she’s been babysat many times and going to daycare for a long while. But somehow, this is different. Her new big girl school is not in the neighbourhood. It’s so far that she and Papa will be taking the metro to get there. I’ll continue to drive Bug to his daycare which is slightly closer.
Babe will be at a big girl school. Bug will spend the days without his sister for the first time in his life.
Already the leaves are changing.
September is coming so fast and I’ve had so much to prepare, with a blessedly busy work schedule, and just getting back from vacation, that I haven’t had much of a chance to process this. So it will come out, as it does, on the yoga mat. It will come out, as it does, in the classes I teach this week.
And the thing is, it doesn’t matter if you have kids or not. It doesn’t matter if your single. It don’t matter if you’re black or white (Thanks, MJ). Change is universal and it is constant.
And stress, is our inability to adapt to change.
Sometimes change happens way faster than we want it to. Sometimes you wake up and you don’t recognize yourself or your life. Sometimes we get hit with a surprise or tragedy. What can we do to cope? We can breathe.
We can watch the breath. We can be curious about it and about the changes it brings to our feelings of tension. Watch how it allows us to relax. To release. To embrace and accept. It’s not possible to panic when we’re breathing properly.
If you get to a yoga class this week, notice the more subtle changes as they’re happening. The breath, yes, so much about the breath. How does the quality of the breath change? Does it change on its own or with your effort. What changes in the body? Where does tension land? What changes are present in our mental state? What are the effects of a particular posture on the body, breath, emotions, thoughts…
One of the most obvious times we can witness change is in pregnancy. Our bodies are changing before our eyes. Hormones, emotions, sleep.
Another obvious time is once the baby is born. A new person lives in our house. A new person is depending on us to survive.
And that baby, that baby changes in the first year, faster than we can believe.
And before we know it, that baby is headed to kindergarten!
I’m not scared. I don’t think Babe is. What I am, is curious. To see how we all settle into this new rhythm. Just in time for something else to change!