The Law of Attraction. Is this something you’re familiar with?
I generally believe in this very important “law” and try to focus my energy as positively as I can. This means that instead of grumbling that I didn’t have a midwife and that I wasn’t going to get one I really should have been thinking that there was a good chance I would get a midwife.
The odds were against me, though. I was getting the impression from the questions I asked and the way they were answered that I really was SOL. I think part of my negativity was how positive I stayed last time, right up to 30-something weeks only to end up midwife-less, with an epidural in my back.
I had heard that birthing centres tend to accept second-time mamas more frequently than first-timers, but when I asked them if that was true they said no. I heard, as well, that if you wanted to give birth at home that would up your chances of getting a midwife, but was told this, too, was just a rumour. Not living in any of the three birthing centre “territories,” I felt hopeless.
Aside from the Law of Attraction, I also (especially now) believe that there is power in the masses. While I was busy feeling sorry for myself, it seems a few guardian angels were thinking positively for me. I know who some of you are, many long-time friends who don’t even read this blog. But I know there are others out there. A lot of people read this blog everyday. Some of you hate me. Some of you love this blog because you can relate to so much of it. Most of you don’t comment. Some of you send emails instead. Many of you are beautiful mamas who I know were wishing the best for me. So thank you, thank you, thank you.
I got a call from not one, but two birthing centres. What the Eff? My first midwife appointment is mid-October and I am positively ecstatic.