Realizing the blood came from your cracked, sensitive nipples.
As difficult as labour was, breastfeeding has been even more difficult for me. My active labour lasted 15 hours (birth story to follow once I wrap my mind around it!) but I have been trying to breastfeed for eight days.
My baby girl is very healthy and has pretty much gained her birth weight back. She doesnt seem to be suffering. Mama on the other hand, spends days crying through the feedings.
Why? An improper latch from the start. Also, two nurses and a lactation consultant have called my baby a Barracuda.
Am I crazy? No. But I am determined. Maybe pumping my milk is an option. I think there is legitimate concern for nipple confusion, so without whining too much, I am trying to be a trooper.
I know few women for whom breastfeeding has been smooth sailing. It ‘s new for both mama and baby. There is a steep learning curve. I know many women who decided soon after giving birth that they would formula-feed their babies, and I can say that now I understand why.
It’s easier to pass judgment when you have no clue what a frustrating, heartbreaking, demoralizing and physically painful experience it can be.
I also know a few women who have toughed it out, sought help, and persisted. I plan to be one of those women. Cheryl and Megan have written posts on this blog about their breastfeeding adventures. They are both inspiring to me.
Tomorrow we will meet again with a Lactation Consultant. Things can only get better.
Here’s to one day and one latch at a time…